Horrible and panic attack . . .
my morning today began with a lot of bbm’s from lecturers and friends, and full of anxiety about the assignment that has not been done, although the deadline is still far away, but for sure there’re still assignments, because after the task is completed, there would have another to do. Because I am a student.
Today I was remained to go to english course at balai bahasa for MIT student. Unfortunately we came late because earlier there was a horrible class, but would be more horrible if we did not come to class.
First class meeting for this afternoon was interested enough and increase my enthusiasm for learning. In my mind, I always concerned and said ‘o my god my grammer is really bad’ do I deserve to be in this program? Sometimes I feel less confident, and feel I can not do it.
That was some negative response from myself.
That was some negative response from myself.
But surely, where there’s devil there must an angel also. There were positive responds from the deepest of my heart and stab the negative responds, and my heart told me that ‘ I should, would, indeed, and certainly can do it. My friends, family, lecturers always support me and believe that I could do the best at all, just need a little spirit for english learning. And now, I am ready to face what will happens. Because I live in this moment and I like it.
That’s all of in my mind, and i know that everything happens for a reason, and the most annoying is waiting or looking for these reasons.
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